Friday, August 7, 2015

Art Intimidating Life - The Ruins of my Mental Empire: Part One Hundred and Thirteen



tiki torches? - jesus christ
 it was a friday night, so so-what?
nothing made sense
so it made sense to go out alone
just the two of them
man, shit - one of them sighed on the couch
yeah, it’s alright - the other one said, sipping a beer at the table
1 - i really, can’t be bothered
2 - yeah, i know, but what else are we gonna do?
1- talk about how much i need to sleep, until it’s dawn
2 - that comes a little too close to complaining about your job
1 - you’re right - let’s go

one wore a tight denim jacket, the other, a workers coat
they drank as they walked down the quiet streets
for the first time that day
they both experienced some sort of real, true, peace
a simple silence
however the sound of their boots walking in winter
and their inconspicuous conversation
only just went unnoticed to the warm, rich houses
somewhere down the driveways
i really don’t care - one of them said
me neither - said the other
a couple of late-workers walked by
on their way home after another late night

alright - one of them said, as they stood before the only bar they could
hello and welcome! - the guy wearing an apron said to them at the door
hey, just a table for us thanks man - one of them said
most certainly, follow me guys, and let’s do this - he said
jesus christ - one whispered to the other
waiter - alright guys, so you looking to settle in, or just have a couple of drinks?
1 - ah, whatever, just a couple drinks
waiter - you bet, i’ll just grab some water for you, happy with tap?
2- ok
waiter - you betcha dude...so tonight we’ve got a great south kempland cab sauv that just melts with the autumn -taught-meatballs that have on special tonight - the beef is locally sourced from a farmer who grew up blind actually…

they both shrunk a little and stared at either the salt or pepper shakers, waiting for the waiter to stop his spiel - neither of them really wanted to see the way he moved his hands as he spoke - moving them in such a warm, soft and comforting way - emphasising texture and comfort - the same way car-salespeople, youth-councillors,  and false-prophets and preachers do
this isn’t a fucking cafe, is it? - one of them thought

2- mate, we’ll just have a couple of beers i reckon
waiter - beers? sure thing guys sounds good on a friday night, doesn’t it?
2 - yeah, carlton draught, thank you
waiter - nicely done indeed, two carltons…
1 - make it two each actually, we’ll save you the effort
waiter - okay then

that was the last they heard from the waiter
after some wait, the four beers came
though hardly a word was said when they did
2- this place… what is it?
1- a place for real-estate agents to come to after work
2- yeah, and for them to cut loose
1 - and stop being fucking pricks for two hours a week
2- those meatballs will do that do you
1 - they should order four serves

outside the window, they could see the passers by walking
an elderly lady with a pusher moved along
she stopped, moved down slowly to pick something up
she had both their attentions by now
it was a ten-dollar note she was picking up
nice one - one of them said
the other gave her a small nod from the window
she smiled and carried on

1 - doesn’t it bother you that “common sense” is just that? - So common, general, and bloody obvious?
2- it bothers me that the “general public” allow themselves to be degraded with such a demeaning label
1- yeah
2- ithe “general public” - i mean why not the “left over filth in that putrid scum-puddle”?
1- they refer to themselves as “us-normal-people”
2- “us-ordinarly-folk”
1- “us-simple-folk”
2-…jesus
1- they are defeated so easily and they don’t care
2- they don’t know it
1- they know it, and they fucking love it
2 - are they sun-baking or are they dead?
1 - exactly
2 - an advanced child is one who has their imagination repressed by the age of two
1 - that should set them up quite comfortably 
2 - better than him
1- whoa - check him out - he looks like he drives a car he thinks impresses people
2 - or wants to impress people
1 - what was it lou reed sung? who really needs a 60 thousand dollar car?
2 - he looks like he’s stumbled across some designer-jeans ad in a magazine somewhere, and thought to himself, i wanna be like that guy - i wanna be him
1 - yeah, as he sucked in his stomach as he stepped out of the shower
2 - i can see his lotions from here
1 - i can smell them
2 - that’s the eclectic-meatballs everyone is ordering

a ridden vibration, rough or smooth, took its time to expand a vision from a cloudy childhood - all memories are cloudy, and childhood is dreamlike - the immense size of suns and stars - the beautiful cold and moving distance between them all - to stream at speed - to move freely, up and down, as a spirit, free from a human or earlthy connection - to expand and move - a complete connection with the natural universe - it stings the human mind at it’s best - the human mind, the human being at it’s worst? it can’t be so

one of them said - it’s like the human race has gone from climbing everest, to walking on the moon, back to running a marathon, 
the other said - and then to reading a book
1 - i know, a full book?
2 - what's next?
1 - taking a walk, i guess